Monday, April 17, 2006 @11:37 PM
wtf sehh...so fucking pissed off with mohan..i feel like dieing..
cannot take the pain anymore..i would rather die,than suffer the pain..
mohan is damn fucking changed..he HARDLY EVER calls me anymore..and then when i call him,he keeps quiet like fuck..
then yesterday i called him,then he keep quiet like some idiot,then i was talking..bla bla bla..then suddenly say 'do u think we r falling APART'..okok fine..watever..
it probaly means he dosent give a fuck about me anymore..right? right? right?
then i cried until like 12;30am..cannot take it sia..
mother fucker..
WAT SIOL!!!!
then i keep quiet like some idiot..
I SHOULD HAVE SAID SOMETHING!!
then i asked him why he never comes to pasir ris anymore..
then he say becos he dosent WANT to come here..
ok fine la..
i BELEIVED HIM..because i trust him alot..
then i asked zachary today..i asked him if mohan is coming to the MPH today.then he say yes..wad the fuck..fucking monkey cibai can lie to me somemore and say he dosent want to come here anymore..
my heart is torn man..
i cannot take it..
he dosent care about me..
all the times we had we all FAKE...
everything is a LIE..
wads the point in having a relationship if there is no TRUST?
why would i want to be with a guy who dosent GIVE A FUCK about watever happens to me?
he dosent care..
seriously..
god dammit..
he dosent care that i have cried these tears just for him..
he dosent care that i have spoke these words jus for him..
wad is his problem?
can i break up with him?
dono wad to do..
my life is destroyed..
but why would i let ONE person ruin everything that i have GAINED?
why?